Hey, I just wanted to open up about something important…

Lately, I haven’t been feeling like myself. For the past few weeks, it’s been really difficult — emotionally, mentally, and physically. I feel like I’m stuck in this cycle of stress and exhaustion, and I’m losing sight of who I am. I haven’t had the energy to focus on myself properly, and even small tasks feel overwhelming.

I’ve been struggling with my health, both mentally and physically. My appetite is irregular, I can’t sleep well, and I’m constantly exhausted — not just from work or daily responsibilities, but also from the environment I live in. I feel like I’m expected to be a machine — to say “yes” to everything, to keep functioning no matter what — and it’s wearing me down.

The worst part is that I’ve started internalizing so many negative thoughts. I catch myself asking:

“Do I deserve the good things I have?”

“Am I a burden to others?”

“Why can’t I be better?”

I even feel guilty for not being able to perform the way I want to — at work, at home, and in my personal life.

There are days where I can barely smile, and sometimes… I don’t feel like I’m living — I’m just surviving. And I’ll be honest, there are moments where even darker thoughts creep in. I know these thoughts are heavy, and I know they’re not easy to hear, but I just need to say them out loud. Because carrying them alone is getting too heavy.

I don’t want to stay like this. I really wish I could just take a break — to step back, to breathe, to heal, to find myself again.

I’m not saying this because I want to worry you or bring you down. I’m saying this because I think I need help. I need support. I need someone to understand that I’m trying — even when it doesn’t look like it.

Thank you for listening. That alone means a lot.